vol. 57

the day after...
if you've ever coached anything, this post might make more sense to you... if not, well...

so our cross country season ended last night - nobody qualified for the state meet from our team - we thought we had one who could make (in fact, he probably should have made it, but it just didn't happen) but the season's over now and a lull sets in for me - there's a part of me that says, probably more than a few times during a season, that i can't wait for it to be over - honestly, i don't know that this has ever been completely true - i hate that it's over - i hate that i don't have something definitive to do after school for the next couple weeks until the next season starts - i hate that kids didn't reach their goals and that i may have failed them (this year more than others due to an issue that was beyond my control) - we've worked with these kids since mid June - and, for the most part, they've done a ton of work to get better - until you've coached a kid for six years, i don't know that you can understand what it's like to see that career end and wish that it could just keep going on... that she could have chapel hill to run this week...

i don't want to go home after school today - i want my cross country season to continue...